Big Plans

The Dreamer is outside smoking a joint with his grammar school friends, Chewy and Alex. They pass the joint to the Dreamer, and he passes it back, and then says that “he has had enough.”

Then the Dreamer is inside of his grandparents house. The environment is austere: very little furniture, sparse. Then the Dreamer’s friend Rory asks for help. The friend wants to use religion to sell a competitive clothing product. The Dreamer says “No, you probably don’t want my help, because I’m not Christian, I’m a Satanist.” The friend looks confused. Then the Dreamer offers an idea to “weave the Eucharist into the fabric of the shirt.” Then there is an unknown male from the salon wearing a backwards hat with Rory. Then the Dreamer explains to the unknown male that the Dreamer and Rory both went to Catholic grammar school and Jesuit high school. Then the unknown male takes a phone call. He answers the phone “wutang, yo g-money”.

Then the Dreamer is inside of his high school apartment. A friend from grammar school, “Rocky” is in the apartment. He comes out of the Dreamer’s bedroom. Then there is a girl, Monica, from college. She is looking at the Dreamer’s bookshelf, and notices some decoration on the shelf that looks like it is native, or from Africa. The Dreamer comments about his “cultural appropriation”.

Then the Dreamer is outside in his current backyard. He looks at the neighboring property, and sees there is a hatch in the ground. The Dreamer investigates the hatch and sees that there is a ladder leading down into a cavern. The Dreamer starts down the ladder and notices there are old, loose, bricks lining the way down. The Dreamer arrives at the bottom of this storage bunker and sees a room full of large scale “architectural plans” and large scale “printers”. The Dreamer investigates one of the plans and sees that there is a futuristic vehicle on the cover page. Then he flips through the plan pages and sees that it is a storyboard for that vehicle. Then the Dreamer sees that the storage bunker has an alternative exit or entrance. The alternative opening leads out to a trailer park. The alternative opening is hidden behind what looks like a garage sale. Then Dreamer sees a poor, old, black man walking towards him. The man notices the Dreamer in the hatch.

Context:

Motifs: Rory, competitive, aggressive persona;

Associations: Marijuana, addiction; grandparents house, austere; unknown male, immature; Rocky, competitor; Monica, rejection; plans, creativity; trailer park, poverty

Feelings: compulsion (to smoke marijuana), rejection (of helping my friend, from Rocky, from Monica), transgression (Satanism, cultural appropriation, trespassing on the neighbor’s property), excitement (of the plans, discovered), fear (of the old black man, of the trailer park, of the grandparents house, of the garage sale, all shadows of poverty).

Interpretation: This is a dream about authenticity and judgement. The Dreamer is facing addiction to competitive judgements, which the Dreammaker is suggesting are based on instances of rejection perhaps originating in the grandparent’s home, constellated in Rocky, Monica (competing over girls), Rory, and the unknown male from the salon. This position is inauthentic to the Dreamer (looks like someone trying to be who they are not, with beliefs that are not theirs, on property that does not belong to them, or someone appropriating a behavior). It seems that the Dreammaker is suggesting that this “competitive” impulse has laid many “long term plans” in the psyche that are not authentic to the Dreamer.